I'm not a real big fan of "father time" right now. As time moves on and we reach these milestones I feel like I am only getting further away from Josiah. People (other than Milo and I) think of him less often, his name is mentioned less often and I don't get the opportunity to talk about him as much. I know people may think or even say to me that's not true, Josiah will never be far from our hearts. For most it is true. I don't expect him to be on the forefront of everyone else's mind. He was not their son. I am scared of the day when he will be gone from this earth longer that he was here and every month that ticks by is another month closer to that day. It seems impossible to keep his memory alive for a lifetime to come. We try though, especially with our girls.

We miss you sweet baby boy. We will never forget the fear we experienced in those last moments of your life on earth and then the peace God granted us when we knew it was over and you were safely home. Mommy and Daddy love you so much.

- A heart that holds on